THE SCENE: Chilly
F3 WELCOME & DISCLAIMER
Usual for me
Cherry Pickers IC
T Squat IC
T Merkin IC
Insert information about the workout.
- Mosey over to (Sophomore hill?) along the way we got some good livin in via flutter kicks
- DORA action (100 burpees, 200 merkins, 300 squats)
- Some more flutter kick and IC work in the parking lot next to sophomore hill
- Some suicide action a lil down the ways as well
Actually did Mary at the AO this time
The highlight was Cheatsheet leading us in some IC Merkins…. those got me good
CIRCLE OF TRUST/BOM:
A short quote from The Brothers Karamazov from Dmitri
“… I mean that’s where the trouble lies, for all the world is an enigma! And whenever I’ve occasion to wallow in the very deepest ignominy of lust (and that’s all I’ve occasion to do), I’ve always read that poem about Ceres and man. Has it set me on the right road again? Never! Because I’m a Karamazov! Because if I throw myself into the abyss I do it straight, head first and heels last, and am even glad that I’ve fallen in such a degrading posture and consider it flattering to myself.”
Interesting note, apparently there is a suggestion in the text that the name Karamazov is associated with another surname which translates to “black smear”
Dmitri is one of three brothers in the story who is a scoundrel that makes trouble constantly. This quote is a good summary of the conversation he has with his brother Alyosha. What struck me about this conversation and this quote particularly is the nature of Dmitri’s reaction to his realization that there are undesirable parts of him (perhaps necessarily so given it being suggested that he is born with them… I am sure there is plenty to be said of the symbolism here) More practically, I must ask myself what is my reaction to my confrontation with the pathological parts of my personality. I decided to share one with the group.
I have a complex relationship with both of my parents. Although there is little explicit conflict (arguing, overt petty actions taken, passive aggresiveness etc), if I am being honest with myself, there is some degree of resentment. The causes and the degree to which I bear it, I am not sure. What I do know is that I am responsible for this and cannot ignore it or accept it (like Dmitri). It is something to be recognized and wrestled with.
Side note: Chaco recommended Steinbeck’s East of Eden after the Q. I highly recommend it to everyone. It is a great read.