F3 Knoxville

Esse Quam Videri

THE SCENE:  70 and soggy.  Perfect for a beatdown.
F3 WELCOME & DISCLAIMER:  Administered. 

  • Cherry pickers x 7 IC
  • Hairy Rockettes x 8 IC
  • Seal jacks IC x 10
  • Overhead claps IC x 10
  • Wide out drops x 10
  • Morrocan Nightclub x 10 IC
  • Knee tap merkin x 5 IC
  • LBCs x 10 IC
  • Hello Dolly x 10 IC
  • Prime time merkin x 5 IC



#1: Sprints across the field.  50%, 75%, 75%, 100%, 100%, 100%

#2:  Chin-ups (max) + 25 merkins + 40 LBCs.  Run a lap (0.40 mi).  Repeat 4x

#3:  Galway hookers.  4 lunges, squat, 4 lunges, 2 squats, etc. up to 10 squats – turn around and work back down to 1 squat. (total 100 squats, 76 lunges)

#4:  Dips x 20 + lateral box jumps x 10 – 3 Rounds

Mosey back


Hat tip to Slappy for leading Freddy Mercury.  Out of time!


Me and 7 of the best men I know


On the morning of June 30, 2013, members of a wildland firefighting crew called the Granite Mountain Hotshots headed into the mountains to protect the small town of Yarnell, Arizona, from an advancing wildfire.  Ignited two days earlier and fed by a strong wind and long drought, the fire had grown from 300 acres to over 2,000.  In the afternoon, the weather changed quickly and the fire raged through a valley and straight toward the crew.  The hotshots attempted to make it to a safe zone but must have known they had little chance to outrun the fire.  They deployed their emergency shelters to shield against the hell that would pour over them.  Tragically, their foil shields would not save them.  The fire overran the crew and all 19 members perished on that hillside.  June 30, 2013 was one of the largest losses of firefighters in modern time, second only to September 11th, 2001.

The Granite Mountain Hotshot crew has a motto; “Esse Quam Videri”.  If you have read F3’s leadership model “Q-Source”, esse quam videri (EQV) may ring familiar in your ears.  The model establishes EQV as something to strive for in all areas of your life.  It is Latin for “to be, rather than to seem.”  To BE…rather than to seemTo be genuine in all these things that you are called to be as a HIM – faithful, trustworthy, kind, supportive, generous – strive to be them.  Be the Real Deal.

  • EQV requires authenticity – being honest with yourself and others (as appropriate) about your capabilities and shortcomings.  I truly appreciate and respect the men who authentically share about struggles during their Qs – the CoT is unlike any other atmosphere for men in our culture.
  • EQV requires intentionality – making a daily commitment and spending the energy to be the man, father, husband, friend, that you are called to be.  Ecclesiastes 9:10, “Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might
  • EQV means your motives and thoughts match your actions.  It’s not enough to appear generous, or forgiving, or supportive – you must be those things in your mind and heart as well.  Mathew 6:1, “Be sure you do not do good things in front of others just to be seen by them”.  Proverbs 10:9, “The one who walks in integrity will experience a fearless confidence in life, but the one who is devious will eventually be exposed.”

To be a genuine HIM, involves hard work on your part – it will NOT just happen.  It is a thousand decisions that you’ll make throughout the day – starting with the one that got you here, getting out of bed to better yourself and your friends.  In his eulogy of the 19 fallen firefighters, then-vice-president, Joe Biden, called them, “Men of undaunted courage, uncommon resolve, and an uncommon and stubborn perseverance in the face of unfathomable challenges”.  You too will have to develop and display undaunted courage, uncommon resolve, and an uncommon and stubborn perseverance, in order to keep pursing your authentic role day after day.

Proverbs 14:23 “All hard work brings a profit, but mere talk leads only to poverty.”

Proverbs 13:4 “Lazy people want much but get little, but those who work hard will prosper.”

Bottom line, men: Don’t do just enough to outwardly appear to be a good husband, a caring friend, a diligent employee…  Persevere each day and resolve yourself to BE those things.


You can read all 50 Q-Source points on the F3 Nation website.  Check out 1.1 DRP for more on Esse Quam Videri.

Part of the workout that you all did this morning was very similar to the minimum physical agility test to be a “hotshot”, a wildland firefighter with the U.S. Forest Service.  All Interagency Hotshot crew members strive to meet the following fitness standards:

  • Run: 1.5 miles in 10:35 or less
  • Sit-ups: 40 in 60 seconds
  • Pushups: 25 in 60 seconds
  • Chin-ups (4-7, based on body weight)


Prayers for Snagg and his family.

CSAUP coming up!

Share Your Heart

THE SCENE:  60 and clear.  Perfect for a beatdown.
F3 WELCOME & DISCLAIMER:  Administered

  • Morrocan Nightclub x 10 IC
  • Chinook x 5 IC
  • Cherry pickers x 7 IC
  • Carolina Dry Docks x 5 IC
  • E2K x 5 IC
  • Hello Dolly x 5 IC
  • Rosalita x 5 IC
  • Twinkle Toes x 10 IC


Mosey to the high-school lot…

Routine 1:

10 Wing-nuts (4 count) + 20 Derkins…. 3 Rounds

Routine 2: Heart-shaped circuit.

6 stations – each has 2 exercises.  Get into groups of 3.  A group starts at one of the stations.  After performing both exercises, run 5/6 of a lap and stop at the station pervious to the one you just left.  Each time you pass the culvert drain (the middle of the “heart”), do 3 muscle-ups on it.  Continue circuit until Q calls stop.

Exercises are:

  • 10 Burpees + 20 BBS
  • 20 E2K Left + 20 E2K Right
  • 10 squat jumps + 20 Diamond Merkins
  • 20 Flutter kicks (2-count) + 20 Squats
  • 30 Calf raises + 20 Carolina Dry Docks
  • 20 Hello Dolly (2 count) + 20 Rosalita (2 count)

Routine 3:  7s on the steps.  Burpees + Donkey kicks.  Bear crawl, crawl bear.

Routine 4:  Suicides on the tennis courts.

First cone and back, second cone and back, third cone and back – Mountain climbers.

Repeato with flutter kicks

Repeato with freddy mercury

Mosey back to the flag


No time!


Me and 5 of the best men I know


Shakespeare’s Macbeth is about toxic ambition and rivalry for the Scottish throne.  Once he becomes king, a paranoid Macbeth orders a raid on the castle of a perceived rival – Macduff – and in that raid Macduff’s entire family is killed.  Macduff, who is in England during the raid, is with a companion when he receives the terrible news about his family – and he becomes silent.  After a moment, his friend prompts him, “Give sorrow words.  The grief that does not speak whispers the o’er-fraught heart and bids it break”.  His friend is urging him – don’t keep this agony inside, or you will implode into despair.  That is good advice – and in this season that I’m in, it registers loudly with me.

I am, by nature and nurture, someone who bottles up emotions – both good and bad – and seldom processes them externally.  We modern men are doubly disadvantaged when it comes to sharing our emotions.  The inner architecture of our brains is physiologically different from our curvy counterparts – MRI studies have shown that women are more capable of expressing their emotions verbally.  On top of that physical handicap, our culture layers an expectation for men to be laconic and impassive – like Charlton Heston in every role he has ever played.  We are free to express anger – but other emotions are effeminate and off-limits.  What a shame that we promote this dysfunction.

Last time I spoke in this setting, I told you about our recent miscarriage and vowed to support my wife well through this hard time.  That meant listening, praying with her and for her, and making myself available – but I also committed to sharing more of my own sadness.  I can tell you, each time I do – whether it is opening up to her, or a quick word with one of you after the workout – expressing those feelings relieves the mounting pressure in my chest.

I want my three young sons (ages 4, 7, 9) to excel where I have not.  I want them to have healthy strategies for talking about their emotions – because in doing so, they will be physically healthier and have richer relationships throughout their lives.  Like their dad, they seem unwilling or unable to reveal much when simply asked, “how do you feel?”.  Maybe they don’t want to talk about it – or maybe they don’t know how to translate their feelings into words.  Just in the last few weeks, I’ve been prodding their emotions a little differently and they’ve responded.  When I can get one of them alone and the moment is right, I’ll ask, “What is the happiest thing in your life right now?”.  Sometimes, they’ll answer that question in full paragraphs – sharing their heart with me.  Then I’ll ask, “What is the saddest thing in your life right now?”  That simple change has led to expanded discussion and gives me a little glimpse of what it looks like for these young boys to express emotion.

Are you at all like me?  Do you muffle your joy and sadness and excitement and disappointment?  Do you even know if you do?  Licensed counselor, Debbie Causey, says a sign that an emotion has been buried is when you give a “dollar response” to a “fifty-cent incident”.  If the largeness of your reaction is disproportionate to the weight of the incident, you might have buried emotion.  Be honest – have you overreacted lately?  Explore that.

Challenge:  Those who are closest to you – friends and family who love you – they deserve to know you better.  They deserve to know how you feel.  Pick one person who is close to you and share a little of your heart with them today or this week.  If you don’t know where to start, then answer one of the questions, “What is the happiest thing in your life right now?” or “What is the saddest thing in your life right now?”

Bonus Challenge Ask them to reciprocate with their own answers – and listen.



Prayers for Pi’s upcoming exam.  No pressure…but….HIS CAREER AND HIS FAMILY’S LIVELIHOOD DEPEND ON HIM PASSING!  But, no pressure.  We know you’ll do great!

Rocket – you better be doing your burpees!  We missed you out there.

I know that, sadly, other HIMs have a wife who has, or will, experience a miscarriage.  If you want to work through that agony with someone who can relate, DM me on Slack and we’ll get together.


The Second Time is Better

THE SCENE:  67 and clear
F3 WELCOME & DISCLAIMER:  Administered. 

  • Cherry pickers x 7 IC
  • Tempo squats x 7 IC
  • Imperial Walkers x 7 IC
  • Hillbillies x 7 IC
  • Mountain Climbers x 10 IC
  • Knee tap Merkins x 7 IC
  • Projectivator from 7


Short mosey to the bars…
15 muscle-ups on the wall + 15 dips on the bars (x3 Rounds)


Mosey to K-25 Hill


Partner 1 – Up the hill

1st time – Sprint

2nd time – bear crawl

3rd time – Bernie

Partner 2

45 burpees

45 BBS

45 lunges (2-ct)

45 squats

45 Merkins


Mosey to the Friendship Bell

11s; Dips and Derkins + 5 box jumps between each set



Mosey back to the flag for some Mary

  • Sleeping Hillbillies L&R
  • Flutter Kicks
  • Freddy Mercury
  • Hello Dolly


Me and 6 of the best men I know


Did that workout seem familiar?  It was a do-over of my first ever F3 workout – one that Snaggletooth Q-ed last April.  Our first time, my performance was terrible.  I couldn’t finish the muscle-ups, was sucking for air like a drowning swimmer, felt ready to vomit at any moment, and was wondering why Archie would invite me to participate in such agony.  You guys dragged this sorry FNG around the park while he muttered to himself, “what the heck am I doing out here at 5:30 in the morning??”  Our second time, however, my personal performance was considerably better than the first.

Let’s talk a minute about regrets.  I’ll start with one of my own…

My wife was 10-weeks pregnant until we lost our baby last week.  We will surely be grieving that loss and processing our emotions for a long time.  While I’m not ready to talk about those feelings publicly – I am going to talk about my response to our tragedy.  You see, this isn’t our first time.  Eight years prior, almost to the day, we lost another baby – what would have been our second child.  Just like my first time doing this workout was a terrible performance, my first time leading after that tragedy was dreadful.  My wife and I grieved our loss separately – I did not try to communicate my feelings and I didn’t pursue hers well.  After just a few days, I went on a work trip to Las Vegas and left her to mourn with our infant son.  At the time, I had some unhealthy habits (self-centeredness, jealous thinking…) and few healthy habits (wasn’t exercising or praying regularly, no shield lock with other men…).  I’ve spoken before about a season of complacency in my marriage. It would be years later before I realized that the origin of that complacency may have been this occasion and some of the aftermath.  Little did I know how lasting an impact it would have… how that curve in the road would redefine us for a time.  My uninspired response and retreat after our shared trauma made an agonizing season even harder – and it is one of the biggest regrets that I have.

This second time isn’t any easier.  In fact, for a multitude of reasons – it seems to be much harder on both of us.  However, I have an opportunity to relive that regretful experience from 8 years ago.  This time, my response can be less selfish and more considerate.  I can think less often of myself and more often of the ones who I’m charged to support and lead.  I can engage with my wife and embrace her often.  I can pray for her and with her.  I can talk to her about my sadness.  I can grieve with her and be there to support her.  I can talk compassionately with our other kids – who are also confused and saddened by our circumstances.  I can continue to care for my physical and emotional health so that I can effectively lead my family.  Our second time, my personal performance will be considerably better than the first.

BB Reader – Are you ready to do something courageous?  Let’s reflect now on you…  What is something that you regret?  Write it down.  Why did you make that choice or decision?  Write it down.

Proverbs 26:11 “As a dog returns to its vomit, so a fool repeats his foolishness

What specifically would you do differently if you are one day in a similar situation? Write it down.

  • What would you say differently?
  • How would you process your thoughts differently?
  • What would you do differently?
  • What would you not do or say?

Proverbs 24:16 “Though a righteous person falls seven times, he will get up…”

You may not ever get a chance to re-do your regret, but what can you do about it today?  Write it down.

  • Issue an apology?
  • Make a recommitment?
  • Take a step toward a long-abandoned dream?
  • Cast-off unhealthy habits which will set you into a tailspin next time?
  • Incorporate or continue healthy habits to be better prepared for next time?


T-Claps to Snaggletooth for creating today’s workout and Q-ing it a little over a year ago

Hat-tip to Archie for pulling me out to F3

I know that, sadly, other HIMs have a wife who has, or will, experience a miscarriage.  If you want to work through that agony with someone who can relate, DM me on Slack and we’ll get together.

Pool Boy on Q tmrw at JUCO, Snaggletooth for Heavy PT on Thursday, Mailbox on Friday at JUCO

Mission Success

THE SCENE:  41 and clear
F3 WELCOME & DISCLAIMER:  Administered. 

LBAC F&B IC x 10
Seal jacks IC x 20
Merkin knee taps IC x 10
Mountain climber x 10
Projectivator IC from 8

Mosey to the recruitment center


Farmer carry two CMUs to the middle island – drop one and keep one.

First Routine – “CMU Sevens”  With one CMU, step to the first parking lot line and perform 7 CMU curls, lunge carry to the next line and perform 7 more.  Rinse and repeat to the other island (11 lines, 77 reps total).  25 reps of CMU squats.  Bear crawl back while pushing or pulling your CMU.

Repeat with Single Arm Rows (switch arm each line)


Second Routine – “Heavy Bear Island Traverse”  At the middle islands (where we dropped our other CMU)

  • Bernie ~100’, do 3 burpees, sprint back.
  • Heavy bear to next island (~20’)
  • Sprint ~100’, 3 burpees, Bernie back.
  • Heavy bear back to start.
  • Then;
    • CMU tricep extensions x 40
    • CMU goblet squats x 30
    • CMU swings x 20
    • Blockees x 10


Another round of CMU Sevens – this time doing Uneven Merkins (one hand on CMU, switching each line)


  • Mosey back to the flag.
  • Dead bug, IC x(a few)
  • Something Rocket made up 😊 ….kinda like a laying down hairy rockette.   


5 of the best men I know


In October 1968, Apollo 7 became the first of the Apollo space missions to carry men into space.  In the alphabetized progression of the Apollo Program objectives, Apollo 7 was launched for “C-Mission” – “Manned flight to demonstrate performance and operability of the Command and Service Module (CSM)”.  It was the first time a Saturn IB vehicle put a crew into space; it was the first three-person American space mission, and the first to include a live TV broadcast from an American spacecraft.  The untried CSM – that bullet-shaped craft – performed splendidly.  The mission was a complete technical success.  They achieved every technical objective and paved the way for Apollo 8 two months later to orbit the moon – and eventually Apollo 11 to land on the surface of the moon, one of mankind’s most historic and awesome moments.

It turns out, though, that one of the crew had a dormant cold which eventually spread to the others.  All three men were coughing, sneezing, and congested in that tiny space together (quarantined).  You might imagine that blowing your nose in space is not the most comfortable thing – it is messy and causes considerable pain to the eardrums.  Uncomfortable and unable to get away for even a moment, they grew irritable with each other.  They complained to ground control about the food.  Disregarding the insistence of their mission commandeers, they refused to wear their helmets during re-entry.  If you read some of the recorded dialogue between the crew and ground control, even the words in black and white convey discomfort and displeasure in their circumstances.

The Apollo 7 crew made it back to earth safety and accomplished every single mission objective.  But none of those three men would ever visit space again…NASA rejected them for consideration for future missions.  Until Apollo 7, our nation had a longstanding and uninterrupted practice of immediately awarding returning astronauts the Distinguished Service Medal.  Because of their conduct, the crew of Apollo 7 was denied that high honor – the only time that has happened (fifty years later, they were awarded their medals posthumously).

These last several weeks, we’ve all been off our normal rhythms.  In some ways, life has been just a little bit more difficult or awkward – that might be from trying to homeschool your kids at night while keeping up with work commitments.  It might be stress from cabin fever or close quarters or fear of the unknown.  If you are like me – or like the Apollo 7 astronauts – maybe those extra stresses have shortened your fuse and made you a little more self-centered.

During this time, you have mission technical objectives – to keep your kids fed, to make sure their homework gets completed, to check in with your boss and finish reports, to keep everyone healthy, etc.  It may even feel a little heroic for getting these things checked off your to-do list despite the added burden.  But don’t believe for a moment that simply accomplishing these tasks equals success.  Success is more than a milestone or a check in a box.  Success is about doing those things with grace and composure and love

The Apostle Paul said (paraphrasing 1 Corinthians 13:1-7).  If I could speak all languages, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noise.  If I possessed all knowledge, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing.  If I gave everything I have to the poor, but didn’t love them, I would have gained nothing.  Love is patient and kind.  Love is not rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged.  Love is always hopeful and endures through every circumstance.

In spite of any current difficultly or discomfort, you need to be focused on more than just meeting the day’s technical objectives – because that alone is not success.  To have a successful day, you also need to show honor, love, grace, compassion, and affection to those around you


1 Corinthians 13: 1-7 (NLT).  “If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.  If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.  Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.”


Prayers for each other and our families.  Continued prayers for Rocket’s mother and Trough.

The Word today was inspired by Chaco’s Word last month and Erector’s from Tuesday.

What a moon today!

Great to be back out with you guys!

Rocket – the Apollo 7 astronauts’ names are; Walter Schirra, Donn Eisele, and Walter Cunningham




THE SCENE:   Mid-50s.  Rainy, thundery, lightningy.
F3 WELCOME & DISCLAIMER:  Administered
Seal claps x 10 IC
Knee Tap Merkins x 10 IC
Tempo Squats x 10 IC
Lunge Runners x 10 each leg IC
Projectivator x 10 IC

Dodge the lightning and head to cover under the senior center veranda.

Last week, Erector started a ridiculously hard pyramid workout.  We didn’t even get halfway through….  Time to pick-up where we left off…at lunges (i.e. Round 6 of the pyramid).  Instead of running a lap between Rounds (Erector’s plan), we’ll bear crawl the length of the veranda.

The pyramid was;
20 Merkins
20 Squats
20 Mountain Climbers
20 Flutter Kicks
20 Diamond Merkins
20 Lunge
20 Burpees
20 Freddy Mercury

We finished 7 more rounds – 800 reps and a bunch of bear crawls.  180 burpees between the three of us (Yeeeessss, Mermaid….we will log them….) 

Hello Dollies
Sleeping Hillbillies

3 HIMs


Early in the biblical story of Daniel, the nation of Babylon besieges Jerusalem – plundering the Temple of God and kidnapping some of the noble families.  Among the captives brought back to Babylon were Daniel and his three friends; Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah.  Once in captivity, they were given new names to conform to the culture; Belteshazzar, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego – and placed into service of Babylon’s King Nebuchadnezzar.

Two years later, Nebuchadnezzar had a nightmare and issued a threat to his sorcerers and counselors (whom Daniel/Belteshazzar was then among), “Tell me what my dream was and what it means – or you’ll be torn limb from limb and your houses destroyed…”  Picking up in Daniel 2:17-18, “Then Daniel went home and told his friends Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah what had happened. He urged them to ask the God of heaven to show them his mercy by telling them the secret, so they would not be executed along with the other wise men of Babylon.”  When he was in trouble and needed true friends to pray with him, Daniel found the three men whom he knew like none other.  He had a history with these men, and he called them by names that few others in Babylon knew them as; Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah.

Some of our F3 culture is, admittedly, peculiar – like calling each other by nicknames.  But I love it.  That nickname marks you in a distinctive way, and those who identify you by your alias know you as few others do.  We know you as a man who is willing to time-and-again slide from his warm bed to better himself and his friends.  We don’t care about your career, your education, your stuff – or your mistakes, your history, your insecurities… Instead, we value your authenticity, your humility, and your determination to get better in all facets of life.  Your vulnerability during a Word impresses us more than your physical intensity during the Q.  We know you as few others do.  

In the gloom, the relationships are as exceptional as the names are unique.  I know that men named Erector and Snaggletooth will get out of bed and do burpees with me in the lightning and pouring rain.  Men named Mailbox and Rocket challenge me to be the best version of myself that I can be – physically, relationally, spiritually.  Men named Samaritan, Slappy, and Guardrail pray for my family and pray that I will be more like Christ each day.  Those men all know that KickFlip is praying for their vitality and he has their back during any trouble that may come their way.  If help is needed, I hope I’m at the top of their call lists.

Out here, you are known in a unique way – which is why you are known by a different name.


Don’t blame me…blame Erector!

Prayers for Rocket and his mother, for Spotter/Gump and their mother, for the health of each other’s families, for each other’s patience

Hat tip to Brad Raby